Tengo un giraffe relleno rosado grande.
Ho un grande giraffe farcito dentellare.
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Mayroon akong higanteng laruang-giraffe na kulay rosa.
musique :: /smoke city/ underwater love
********* /madonna/ hollywood
********* /artful dodger/ movin too fast
haven't seen y'all for almost 3 weeks, right? kinda been busy.. so beautifulcrazy is on hiatus for a while.
despite the fact that i'm still not hitting the books and i feel like i'm failing subjects like Management and Geography (Math is cool and I love it. heehee!! It's the only subject where ive never gotten anything lower than a 100% .. di ba ang angas??!), i'm doing fine.
haven't registered for college organiz8ns yet. i might try out for Lex Baile or the AB Cheerleading Team. there's also the university-wide dance troupe, Salinggawi. that's where they get the official Univ cheerleaders. if i get in there, the univ would be giving me a full scholarship AND a monthly allowance.
i've mentioned that i can't do the splits and cartwheels. i've been cheerleading for 4 years. i was even sub-captain (there were 4 of us) for 2 consecutive years, but i was basically the flyer. no splits. no cartwheels.
later this evening, my aunt and my cousin arrives here from the US. they'd be here for a month, i think. i'm hoping i won't have to go to school tomorrow, but i've major exams in Sociology and Theo. (dang!)
bring on the confectionery!! mmm.. :P 『좀』JOM [3:54:00 AM]
musique :: /telepopmusik/ breathe
*********** /paul van dyk/ nothing but you
i'm sorry if i've bombarded ya with my college problema these days.
you probably know how determined my dad is about me getting in the Univ of the Phils.. and a few weeks ago, i was sure i could tell everyone that i'm studying in UST.. but dad isn't ready to give up on U.P. yet. he claims that there's still a possibility that i'd get accepted in there.
if you ask me, i'm fairly sure my chances are zero. nil. wala.
wala na. i've declared time and time again that i'm too stupid for UP.
imagine just how hard to be part of the lucky 6-7% of the total thousands of applicants there each year.
UP is only for the diligent & deserving students. i'm just not part of that.
dad should better deal with it.
maybe he doesn't realize that there's a timeline here.
UST requires Liberal Arts students to wear some ditzy uniform. i haven't had one made. or bought an RTW one, if it's possible.
the term starts this week.
whoop. )o: why does everyone here think i'm still in high school? i need to get geared up now. dad really should quit his UP dreams. or at least get his final answer.
i'll try to contact Paolo later.
is it still there? i hope not. i'd head over to the eye doctor again tomorrow and we'll see. please, please, please.. no surgery. please. today's panic attack had been bad enough. 『좀』JOM [8:05:00 PM]
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[ 6.06.2003 ]
*say hello to my crap.
musique :: /cheeky girls/ take your shoes off
L.....my god.
while making a phone call, tuning in to some fm band, or while my high school lab teacher picks her nose, i doodle. (heehee)
since i was 13, i had this pad i keep my doodles in. my sis says they look morbid. they do not! okay, maybe some
eh??! why do the cheeky girls have a career still?!
under observ8n til sunday. i just had to ask for a second opinion. and i did.
Dr. Ngu says that i've to continue using those eye drops and drink medication thrice, and if it's still there by Sunday, when it really needs to get incised.
my mom had a funny way of getting out of the scheduled surgery. she actually called in, and told the other doctor that i can't make it because i had a sudden case of diarrhea. hahaha!! we'll see if they actually believed that.
just a quick blog to let y'all know that i'd undergo an operation tomorrow. and i'm pretty spooked.
eye surgery. something's gonna be incised in my right eye.
really nervous. i hate hospitals.
need your moral support.
w8.. oh wow. as of this moment, i'm ranked #1 on the RBJ. vote for me?
*good gawd.
musique :: /linkin park/ faint
clad :: low-rise jeans, tee, and converse hi-tops (o: comfy streetwear
so i went to see an eye doctor this morning because my right eye sort of swelled last week. the pain's been long gone, and it's no longer swelling, but mom dragged me in there anyway.
turns out that some sort of capsule had formed underneath the eyelid and if i don't have it incised, it'll burst out one day and i don't want to think what'd happen.
what had caused it? dust. possibly from rubbing mine eyes with mine fingers. dirty fingers, maybe.
we all thought it was a harmless insect bite, but thanks to my mama's penchant for exaggeration, who predicted that it'd get incised one day, i could avoid getting blinded.
i said i was really nervous. i really am.
big baby is skaewwd.
and i should be. you'd get scared too.
the whole time i'd be undergoing surgery, i'd be awake. EYES WIDE OPEN. nothing else but anaesthesia.
Rencie, Kai's gay bestfriend genius who'd taken up Biochemistry, was telling me how the skin around your eyes are elastic and once they had it all stretched, your eye might as well pop out.
ermm.. let's all hope that they put everything back together, okay? please?
in 4 hours, i could remove the eye patch they'd place after. harharhar.. cap'n hook.
i'm an out-patient. which means i'd saunter in and leave after a few hours.
to those who wear contact lenses as well, always, always wash your hand clean before poking your eyes. always always have them clean when you take off the lenses. always always restrain from rubbing your eyes. OR ELSE!! (o: 『좀』JOM [2:58:00 AM]
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[ 6.02.2003 ]
*sheng dan kuai le!!
musique :: /linkin park/ faint
clad :: tank top & hoochie shorts.. loungewear.
chow :: TicTacs ..yay!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!! there're about 200 days left til that day. remember that i was the first one to greet ya, 'kay? lol (o:
*****
Kai got back from Isabella the other day. 6 weeks far from civilization. if it's any consolation, she learnt how to do her own laundry. (o:
i dun wanna be helpless anymore. i want to cook my own food, and do my own laundry too. i freaking dunno how. and i hate myself for it.
i don't like the fact that i rely too much on our household helpers. i don't like the fact that i can't live on my own without microwave ovens, rice cookers, and instant noodles. :o(
*****
i eschew asking for anything from my folks. i won't sweet-talk or beg or lick their shoes clean to get what i want. i usually save up on my own. i'd like to avoid all those unnecessary questions they'd ask.
"Why do you want it?" and "What're you gonna do with it?" and a thousand more. i'd eventually be like, "I don't want your money after all."
let's see if they'd donate money to my N7250 fund. heehee.
me want financial independence more than anything. with 8 years of university ahead of me, that's what'd keep me going through all those shit.
a week left 'til school. tick-tock. 『좀』JOM [4:58:00 AM]
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